It's me (Dayna) finally getting around to actually put a blog up. :) First of all, thanks to all those who are praying with us during this time. Knowing others are bringing these petitions before the Lord is a great encouragement. Please keep praying!

To explain the title...this thought came to my mind a couple of days ago, 'Not my will, but Thine.' Many times I've prayed, "God have your will in my life and do what it takes to make me more like You." But then I wondered after all this has happened, "I ask for God to have His will in my life but do I really mean that even if it means it might be something that's not the most enjoyable thing or a difficult trial?" As I've thought and prayed through this thought my answer to God has been "yes." It's many times (and even as I type this now) said through tears but with a genuine heart that wants what God wants in my (our) life. I'm the type of person that wants to ask the why question though something like this but I know that God doesn't want me to be asking, "why is this happening again, why me, why...?" He wants my true heart to be asking, "Not my will, but Thine not matter what because I know that Your way is best."

I have been reading and meditating through Psalm 143 and seeking to have this as my heart and prayer to God.
1Hear my prayer, O LORD, Give ear to my supplications! In Your faithfulness answer me, And in Your righteousness.
2 Do not enter into judgment with Your servant, For in Your sight no one living is righteous.
3 For the enemy has persecuted my soul; He has crushed my life to the ground; He has made me dwell in darkness, Like those who have long been dead.
4 Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed within me; My heart within me is distressed.
5 I remember the days of old; I meditate on all Your works; I muse on the work of Your hands.
6 I spread out my hands to You; My soul longs for You like a thirsty land. Selah
7 Answer me speedily, O LORD; My spirit fails! Do not hide Your face from me, Lest I be like those who go down into the pit.
8 Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning, For in You do I trust; Cause me to know the way in which I should walk, For I lift up my soul to You.
9 Deliver me, O LORD, from my enemies; In You I take shelter.
10 Teach me to do Your will, For You are my God; Your Spirit is good. Lead me in the land of uprightness.
11 Revive me, O LORD, for Your name's sake! For Your righteousness' sake bring my soul out of trouble.
12 In Your mercy cut off my enemies, And destroy all those who afflict my soul; For I am Your servant.

We're asking God to answer our prayers and hear our prayers not because of anything that we are but b/c of His faithfullness and His righteousness. God will always answer and whatever the answer is we can know it is always right because He is faithful & righteous!

Now for the update you probably were looking for...my bottom and bones are getting sore!! (Aren't you glad you kept reading???!!! haha) Really...I'm so thankful to be home and layng in my bed and on the couch rather than the board at the hospital. I'm thankful to be back with Isabelle!! She knows something is different about mommy and that I'm not able to get up to get her so she can run away from me when she wants to. :) I praise the Lord for such a great husband!!! He's met all my needs and MUCH MUCH more! He's being a great Daddy too! I couldn't ask for more. He's done more than I could have asked for and has always been loving and caring even though it's just as hard on him (probably harder)to have me on bedrest. The only time I'm able to get up is to go to the RR. Please be in prayer as tomorrow we go to the high-risk dr. for a checkup. We're praying that the length of my cervix hasn't shortened any. I'm still having the tightening contractions on and off throughout the day even with medicine. We'll try to give an update tomorrow after the 2pm appt. Sorry this blog was a little long hope you made it through. Thanks for praying and checking up on us.